Pessimism...

Swim meet tomorrow...if I don't make CCS in the 50 free I will be very sad. I'm kind of sick too, which dampens my chances further. =[

I choked on water when swimming butterfly in practice today, so I'm not looking forward to the 100 fly...

On a completely unrelated topic, I like eating. A lot. I eat a lot more than I used to. I guess I'm going to get fat when I'm in college. Maybe wrestling has gotten me to appreciate food more. I'm about 165 now, up from 155 at the beginning of the year, and I highly doubt that any of that is muscle...

College acceptances are looming around the corner, and I don't really care. If I get rejected from everywhere, I can always go to West Valley and play water polo and save some $100,000. I could also get a job at a Carls Jr. or Blockbuster and earn minimum wage while living in my mom's basement. If I get accepted, then I have to travel aaallll the way to the college I want to go to and adapt to a completely different lifestyle...

Second semester senior year is even busier than first semester. There's still homework, and swimming starts early, so there's no time for anything afterschool. Also, all the cool people at school aren't second semester seniors, so they don't have as much time to hang out on weekends as I do. =[

I wish I was better at water polo. I used to have potential, but because I went to a non-polo oriented school, I suck now. Maybe I should've gone to a better polo school...but whatever. If I was better I might've been able to get recruited somewhere.

Oh well. Life goes on...